February on Film, Part 1

The first half of our February 2018, documented on 35mm film. I wrote a bit more about my personal photography project for this year here.

In January, most of my images were captured at home. I made it a point in February to bring my camera with me when I headed out of the door.  

Same as last month, I used my Nikon F100 with 85mm lens for these images.

As with any daily practice, I've learned that once your friends and family know what you are doing and why, you can count on them to support you and encourage you. I hope you enjoy these snippets of our life as much as I enjoyed capturing them.

The second half of February, coming soon.

January on Film, Part 2

The second installment of bits and pieces of my January 2018, captured on 35mm film.  And once again, as I stated in Part 1 of this series, these images feel very intimate to me.  The grain of the film definitely captures the mood, and maybe that's what makes me feel so vulnerable in sharing these. You can read more about this project here.

February currently underway. Looking forward to sharing those images in early March.

January on Film, Part 1

One of my personal projects this year to document my days on 35mm film

I am quietly and thoughtfully capturing one moment of my day on film, and waiting until the end of the month to develop and scan.  So far, I've found that taking only one photo is a challenge - I could easily take two, three, or four captures. And of course, waiting until the end of the month to see what I have captured is a treat.

Right now, I am using my Nikon F100 with 85mm lens, but I'm not putting any restrictions on my camera or film - just whatever I have on hand at the moment.   

Here is the first half of January, captured at different times of my day.  Most were taken in and around our home, with the exception of a quick trip to Charleston, South Carolina.  Also included are two photos of my youngest daughter who spends most of her days with me. 

I am surprised at how incredibly intimate these images are for me. Each evokes a since of certain memory for me.  I can't wait to see how this project evolves of the year.

I'll share the second half of January very soon.

imperfections

Have you ever taken a photo, thought it was horrible, and moved on?

It happens to me all the time with film. Imperfections. The focus is off, the film is bad, exposure is all wrong, there is a light leak - whatever the reason may be, and I toss it aside, vowing to learn from my "mistake".

And then, while rummaging through my film drawer, I come across a photo again.  But this time, it speaks to me in a way it never did before.  Sure, the technical aspects are all wrong, but the feeling, the emotion at the time the image was captured, is all right. 

I took these photos almost two years ago, I was pregnant with my 3rd daughter.  I didn't take "official" maternity photos.  I remember taking these myself, with film, and not being satisfied with them for one reason or another, and tossing them aside.  I believe my favorite photo from this pregnancy was actually this one taken with my iPhone!

But now, looking back - I see them in an entirely different light.  

The beautiful curve of my body that brought life into this world, untouched and real. I am immediately taken back to that moment.

And oh my, how sweet and raw those first newborn days are.  These images forever capture that emotion for me.

So I didn't share these for one reason or another when they were taken.  But here they are now - untouched and not perfect.

This is why I shoot film.  Because even in their "imperfections", there is beauty.

morning and evening memories

A new month and a new layout with Ali Edwards's story kit and theme - am/pm

I decided to document my morning and evening childhood memories.  Mostly because I capture so much of my current morning and evening routines with my girls, I thought that this would be a good chance for me to write about some of my own routines growing up. 

I remember that my mom worked nights and would not get home until after I left for school. This meant that mornings were reserved for me and my dad.  I have such fond memories of him getting me ready for school and combing my hair in the morning. 

I scanned some of my early childhood pictures (film!) and converted them to black and white in Photoshop. I printed them on 8.5 x 11 epson photo paper along with my story.  I also added a few of the chipboard stickers from the kit - really love those.

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My mom was home by the time I returned home from school.  I vividly remember our afternoon/evening routines and how very sacred my time with her was.  

I love this picture of us. Currently, I am about the same age as she was in this photo.  I really wish that I could go back in time and have a chat with her as a young mom.  To hear her struggles and triumphs, and compare notes on young motherhood (now that I am in the middle of it).

Once again, I scanned this image and converted it to black and white.  I added "am/pm" to this spread, another chipboard sticker, and "The Story" sticker for a pop of color.

And here is how it looks in my album:

Once again, I am using a We R Memory Keepers 8.5 x 11 Classic Leather Album to hold all of my story layouts.  

Love, love, love that I have these memories documented.  

Here are my past story layouts for gather and first.

currently

Happy that it's March! Come on Spring. 

Loving this post by Lisa Congdon  - On Getting Older.

Feeling a bit overwhelmed by my girls' spring schedules.  It seems like every afternoon is filled with activities.  

Inspired by this post by Vanessa which included Ira Glass on the Creative Process - a reminder to do the work.

Trying not to feel overwhelmed by all the creative ideas swirling in my head.

Cried when I listened to this Story Corps podcast, When Sean Speaks. As a mother, the moment when your child realizes that your love is unconditional is priceless.

Making time for a little photography and documenting everyday.

Signing up for Lindsay's new Skillshare class - Creative Self Portraits, Going Beyond the Selfie.

Preparing for my next race.  I went on a long run with my husband yesterday. So thankful for his support.

Excited about my new film photography project - On the Table, volume 2. You can follow along with my progress via my newsletter.

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Excited about a few new creative ventures I am working on.  I will share more soon.

Listening to the ever growing vocabulary of my one year old.  It amazes me how many words she learns from her older sisters.

Enjoying a little creativity everyday. Picking up my camera, watercolors, and documenting as of late.

Addicted to podcasts. Waiting on season 2 of Serial, but in the meantime I am enjoying Criminal, Strangers, Startup, StoryCorps, The Lively Show, and Elise Gets Crafty.  Any others I should be listening to? 

Eating steel cut oats with sliced almonds and bananas. Always.

Finding that I am pinning more and more these days.

Preparing for my first 10K in a couple of weeks. Nothing beats the jolt of accomplishment first thing in the morning from a good run.  

Wanting to share a heartfelt thanks for following my work in this new space. I'm loving it so far.